guess who's sleeping

ive gone shopping the past two days and i've spent so much money. i got some clothes (2 jackets, a skirt, a top, and a dress) at forever21. that place is insanely busy. we have the flagship store thats why. ... 3levels...anyways and i got some jewelry from a store on haight called 'so good'. its essentially claires on acid/crack. i also got some fabric... i got 5 yards of black stretchy lace for $15- good deals yo...
and i also FINALLY got a fishtail. its actually a nosering stud but its comfy and doesn't rub against my gums :)

tonight im supposed to see a concert with ben but he didn't got to bed until a few hours ago. we're still going but he's probably going to be grumpy or something. i dont know. its kind of irritating. especially since he went to pick up at 11am. who does that.

and i have news from my brother's whereabouts. hes total embarrassment to the family. i'd rather not talk about it- i just want to comment that he's never going to change and that i've lost all hope in him.
and i really dont know why i thought people could change because they really can't. if youre born a loser, you die a loser-
and being a loser really deals with nothing else than making decisions. and how hard is it to make good choices in life?! i mean EASY decisions, like should i do crack/coke today or should i go look for a job. should i buy weed or buy food.
i mean really....bunch of lazy dumbasses.

mm and some drunk black bum on the bus today was yelling at every white guy that got on the bus to stop being a racist. then he told us how he had sex with a 'five or six year old'. and the chinese bus driver did nothing about it. if it were a black lady bus driver she would've kicked his ass out.. with attitude. because they dont take no shit from no one.
and when we got stuck behind a bus that was broken, rather than drive AROUND the bus as the other buses were doing- he thought it would be smarter to just sit behind it. the other bus driver finally came and yelled at our driver to just drive around him. idiot!
and im an idiot too- i was running home the other day because i was cold and fell on my face. i have cuts on my knuckles now but it kind of looks like i got into a fist fight- so i dont mind. im lame i know.